Sunday, August 28, 2005
Thursday, August 11, 2005
This morning, my door buzzer rang. I was pleasantly awakened by 1800 Flowers Deliveryman!
I received an ABSOLUTELY STUNNINGLY BEAUTIFUL vase of long red roses!
The card was not named, but explained that it was to the best friend and a wonderful person.
I am honored that somebody thinks so highly of me. I am so happy, and thank you to whomever got these beautiful roses for me!
Saturday, July 23, 2005
Thanks to All of you....
Sunday, July 17, 2005
What a great weekend! Lots of play, lots of fun and sun....and Margaritas! I love Margaritas!
It was nice and sunny up till earlier this afternoon when we had a passing shower.
I have been so busy lately that I have not been able to keep up with the demand! Supply and demand, right?
Apparently everybody is deciding to see me lately! I cannot hire other girls, because it is so rare and difficult to find another masochist such as myself!
So guys...be patient- if I cannot book you right away,hang in there!
I have to remember to heal up between scenes. So be patient and you will get to see me!!!!!!
Wednesday, July 13, 2005
Video Shoot was GREAT!!!
This past weekend, I shot my first major video with the beautiful Traci Islands! I had SO MUCH fun shooting this film, and know that those who see it will notice the same!
There is a lot of fun in the film, and its a lot of girl/girl action!
I won't give away too many secrets, but you will have to wait till its on shelves!!!!!!
Sunday, July 10, 2005
I Am a Submissive Woman
I Am a Submissive Woman
I find pleasure, joy, and fulfillment from being submissive to another in a loving relationship.
I am not weak, or stupid. I am a strong woman, with firm views and a clear concept of what I want out of my life.
I do not serve out of shame or weakness, but out of pride and strength.
I look to my loving Master for guidance and protection, for never am I more complete than when he is with me.
I know that he will protect my body, my mind, and my soul with his strength and wisdom.
He is everything to me, as I am everything to him. His touch awakens me and his thoughts free me.
Only in serving him do I find complete freedom and joy.
His punishments are harsh, but I accept them thankfully, knowing that he has my best interests always foremost in his mind.
If he desires my body for pleasure, I shall joyfully give it to him, and take pleasure myself from knowing that I have brought him happiness.
However, the pleasure of the flesh is but one facet of any relationship.
The love, the trust and sharing, the words spoken and felt, those are all parts of this relationship.
My body is his, and if he says I am beautiful, then I am.
No matter what I look like to others, I am beautiful in his eyes, and because of that I hold my head high... ..
for who can tell me that my Master is wrong in seeing the beauty in me?
If he says I am his princess, then I am that...regal and graceful.
And if I see laughter at me in the eyes of others, I do not recognize it, for who are they to call my Master wrong?
If he says I am his toy, his slut, his tramp, then I am that...as wanton and dirty as he wants me to be, and if others do not see this, then it is they who are blind, not my Master.
My mind is his, to expand, to explore, to know as only he can. I have no secrets from him...for secrets are a thing that would keep me from being more perfectly his.
Secrets would put a wall up between my Master and myself...and I do not want walls.
soHis lessons are not always ones I would seek on my own, but they are lessons he has decided I need, and so I learn from him.
My soul is his, as bare to his touch as ever my skin could be when I kneel naked at his feet.
Never a moment goes by when I do not feel his presence, be he miles away or standing over me.
If I were to ever displease him, his displeasure would be a blow to my soul, worse punishment than any lashes could be.
The anguish of my soul that I feel when I disappoint him is harder to bear than the physical anguish I feel when his belt caresses me with fire.
I spend my days knowing that the energy and thought he puts into our relationship is as much for my benefit as for his, and look forward to each lovingly crafted scene that we do together.
soHis part is much harder than mine, and I know this and am grateful that he cares enough about me to spend his time and energy so freely on me.
I have the easier job: to feel, to experience, to let myself go and abandon everything to him.
I am his pleasure and his responsibility, and he takes both seriously. I am a submissive woman. I am proud to call myself that.
My submission is a gift that I do not give lightly, and can only be given to one who can appreciate that gift and return it tenfold.
Only to he who has that strength will I give myself fully, because I am strong and proud.
I am a submissive woman.
Today is the BIIIIIIIGGGGGGGG DAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Today is when I film with Traci and Nikki in our all-girl film!
I can't wait, although I am a little nervous! I hope that I do everything properly, and I want to have a lot of fun!
I am sooooo nervous!
The video will be in adult video shops, and I will also be on the boxcover with Traci! I am soooooo happy!
I will be able to sell the videos as well to clients and fans!
This will be my first big movie, and I am sooo nervous but excited!!!
Wish me luck...lol!